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[11 May 2003|05:07pm]
I got a new journal!!!!!!!

It is... emo__ti0nal

It is friends only, so if I haven't added you comment and I will be sure to!
|You bleed

[03 May 2003|11:00pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Name: Grace Marie Johnson
Do you like it?: Eh.. it's alright.
Nicknames: Gracie
Screen names: I have too many. But the ones that are most recent are b r o k e n xo and less than gloryx
Age: 15
Birthday: April 1st
Sign: Aries
Location: Roseville
School: Roseville Jr. High School
Status: Taken
Crush: --
Virgin?: Yes
Natural hair color: Brown
Current hair color: Brown with blonde highlets and pieces of pink, purple and green.
Eye color: Green
Height: 5"0'
Birthplace: Mt. Clemens General
Shoe size: Hm..7 1/2.. 8?
Bra size: 34 C

[ family ]

Parents: Mom and Dad
Siblings: 1 sister
Live with: Mom, Dad and Sister.
Favorite relative: My Cousin Lisa =) she is pure greatness.

[ favorites ]

Number: 52
Color: Green and Black
Day: Friday
Month: June and July
Song: Hmm.. The White Stripes-We're Going To Be Friends or The Fags-Truly, Truly.
Movie: Hmm.. Holes or Moulin Rouge.
Food: Hmm.. anything from Taco Bell =)
Band: I have so many...New Found Glory, Green Day, The White Stripes, Less Than Jake, Fall Out Boy, The Fags, Ok Go, The All-American Rejects, Matchbox 20, Goo Goo Dolls, The Used, Box Car Racer, Finch... I don't know, there are many more.
Season: Summer
Sport: Uh.. Swimming??
Class: Um.. Math.. I guess.
Teacher: Mrs. Bowersock and Mrs. Glushyn.
Drink: Pepsi.
Veggie: Broccolli.
TV Show: Malcolm In The Middle and Even Stevens.
Radio Station: 89x
Store: Pac Sun.
Word: I don't know, I just laugh a lot.
Animal: Horses and Birds.
Flower: Dasies =)
State: New York

[ this or that ]

Me/You: Um.. Me?
Coke/pepsi: Pepsi
Day/night: Night
Aol/aim: AIM
Cd/cassette: CD
Dvd/vhs: DVD
Jeans/khakis: Jeans
Car/truck: Truck =)
Tall/short: Tall.
Lunch/dinner: Lunch
NSYNC/BSB: Justin Timberlake, lol.
Britney/Christina: Hardcore Britney Fan! All the way =)
Gap/Old Navy: Neither..ack.
Lipstick/Lipgloss: Neither.
Silver/Gold: Silver
Alcohol/Weed: I'm too young for that yet.

[ love and relationships ]

Do you have a bf/gf?: Yes =)
Do you have a crush?: Nope
How long have you liked him/her?: --
Why do you like this person?: I can talk to him about anything, and he loves me no matter what. He supports me no matter what, and he is just the most greatest person inside and out.
If you're single... why are you single?: --
If you're not single... give details...: Matthew Robert Knaack =) 1 month and a week and a half or something along those lines, lol.
How long was your longest relationship?: 13 and a half months =(
How long was your shortest relationship?: 5 days.
Who was your first love?: Sam Seguin.
What do you miss about them?: I'm not sure. I just miss everything sometimes I guess.

[ the past ]

What is the one thing you would change about your past?: Hm.. I'm not sure.
life?: It's alright.
Last thing you heard: The T.V
Last thing you saw: The Lizzie Mcguire movie.
Last thing you said: Okay.
Who is the last person you saw?: My dad.
Who is the last person you kissed?: Matt
Who is the last person you hugged?: Matt
Who is the last person you fought with?: Matt
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: Matt lol
What is the last TV show you saw?: Hmm. I dont watch tv that much. I can't even remember.
What is the last song you heard?: Um. ? Idk. For some reason I keep hearing Trapt-Still Frame over and over and over in my head.. and just the one part "I'm just as lost as yooooouuuuu".. Yeah..

[ the present ]

What are you wearing?: Um. Jeans, A pink blink 182 shirt, my black NFG hoodie, my socks and everything else underneath ;)
What are you doing?: Chewing gum
Who are you talking to?: My sister
What song are you listening to?: None
Where are you?: My house.
Who are you with?: My mom and My dad and My sister.
Are you online?: Yep.
How are you feeling?: Real Hungry.
Are you in a chatroom?: No.

[ future ]

What day is it tomorrow?: Saturday.
What are you going to do after this?: Eat some pizza, lol.
Who are you going to talk to?: Megan and Danielle.
Where are you going to go?: To bed soon!
How old will you be when you graduate?: 18 I hope, lol.
What do you wanna be?: No Idea.
What is one of your dreams?: To become a famous singer/song writer
Where will you be in 25 years?: Hmm.. hopefully married.

[ have you ever ]

Drank?: No
Smoked?: No
Had sex?: No
Stolen?: No
Done anything illegal?: No
Wanted to die?: Yes
Hit someone?: Yes.

[ other ]

Do you write in cursive or print?: Print--I totally forgot how to write in cursive lol.
Are you a lefty or a righty?: Righty.
What is your sexual preference?: Male
What piercings do you have?: One on each earlobe, and one up in the cartalidge.
Do you drive?: Nope.
Do you have glasses or braces?: Glasses sometimes to read.
Did you like this survey?: Sure..

[ physical appearance ]

What do you most like about your body?: Eyes
what do you like the least?: Almost everything.
How many fillings do you have?: 3 and 2 more within the next month =(
Do you think you're good looking?: Nope.
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: Nope.
Do you look like any celebrities?: Nah. People say I look like Advil Lasagna, but I don't count that as a complement.

[ fashion ]

Do you wear a watch?: No
How many coats and jackets do you own?: 2 lol
Favorite pants/skirt color?: Hm.. my brown Dickies and my black Dickies. They have some sweet grey ones, but I didn't get them.
most expensive item of clothing?: My Dickes lol.
Most treasured?: Um. My NFG hoodie.
What kind of shoes do you wear: Whichever ones I like. I have a pair of the new Cons. and I have a gold pair of addidas with black and red laces, they are sweet.
Describe your style in one word: Uh.. ? Is that possible?

|You bleed

[01 May 2003|07:37pm]
title or description

This is how it goes
If you want to be added comment in my journal.
Do not add me until I have added </b>you
1 You learn| |You bleed

[01 May 2003|07:34pm]
|You bleed

[27 Apr 2003|12:32am]
[ mood | content ]

The White Stripes-Apple Blossom

Hey little apple blossom,
what seems to be the problem?
All the ones you tell your troubles to
they don't really care for you.

Come and tell me what your thinking.
Cause just when the boat is sinking,
a little

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<b><u><big>The White Stripes-Apple Blossom</b></u></big>

Hey little apple blossom,
what seems to be the problem?
All the ones you tell your troubles to
<b>they don't really care for you</b>.

Come and tell me what your thinking.
Cause <i>just</i> when the boat is sinking,
a little <fontcolor=yellow>light</fontcolor> is blinking,
and I will come and rescue you

Lots of girls walk around in <fontcolor=blue>tears</fontcolor>,
but thats <b>not</b> for you
You've been looking all around for years
for someone to tell your troubles to

Come and sit with me and talk awhile
Let me see your <i>pretty</i> little smile
Put your troubles in a <small>little</small> pile
and I will sort them out for <u>you</u>

Lots of girls walk around in <fontcolor=blue>tears</fontcolor>,
but thats <b>not</b> for you
You've been looking all around for years
for someone to tell your troubles to

Come and sit with me and talk awhile
Let me see your <i>pretty</i> little smile
Put your troubles in a <small>little</small> pile
and I will sort them out for <u>you</u>

I'll fall in <fontcolor=red>love</fontcolor> with you
<u>I think I'll marry you</u>
1 You learn| |You bleed

[26 Apr 2003|10:35pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason.
I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life.


I have had a good past couple days =)

Thursday: Well, I woke up at 1 as usual. And then me and Amanda made plans to go to the movies. We went and saw Holes. Let me tell you, Shia Labeouf is hott! =) Well anyhow, we made plans, and so I called and invited Matthew =) and Derek, but I guess Derek couldn't go so Matt did. Erica and Shannon came too =) We had so much fun. Then I stayed at my Erica's house! We had fun. 8-)

Today: Well, me and Erica woke up about 11 I think, and her mom took us out to lunch. And we went to Subway. Yum =) Then we went back home. We called Matt, and we made plans with Megan. Then me and Erica headed over Megans after terrozing Amanda and Shannon. We got to Megan's then we left at three thirty. Then we went to Erica's I watched some Moulin Rouge what a great movie =) I love it so much. Lmao, Ryan told me that he heard the girls that memorize songs from Moulin Rouge are usually lesbian. Lol, you're wrong buddy! lol! Then at about four thirty, Megan and Shannon came over, then we went to Fountain, and met Ryan and Amanda. We had a blast. Me, Megan, Shannon and Danielle, where kicking our shoes off while we were swinging. They went high! =) Then we played kickball. Girls vs. Boys. Which means.. Ryan and Matt against, Erica, Shannon, Danielle, Megan, Amanda and me lmao! They made us take our shoes off to play lmao. Then we headed back to Megans. We hung out outside for awhile, then it got cold so we went inside, and we just watched tv and hung around. Me and Matt got some animal crackers hurled at us lmao. =) You're too cute Megan.

Well that's about it


1 You learn| |You bleed

[26 Apr 2003|10:32pm]
Please fill this out :)

- When did we meet?
- What is my best quality?
- What is my worst quality?
- Have we ever talked on the phone?
- Have you ever seen me cry?
- Have you ever seen me dance crazy?
- Describe me physically and mentally:
- What is the best memory you have of me?
- What is the worst memory you have of me?
- Have we ever gotten in a fight? If so what was it over?
- If you could give me a present, what would it be?
- Would you hug me?
- Would you kiss me?
- What do you REALLY think of me?
- Whats the coolest rumor you heard about me?
- Do you trust me?
- Would you trust me with your girlfriend/boyfriend?
- Do you know something about me that no one else knows?
- Do you even know how old I am?
- Anything you wanted to tell me but never got a chance to?
- Do you love me?

thaaaank you :):)
4 You learn| |You bleed

[24 Apr 2003|10:09pm]
You're "You Know How I Do", you're always
tired, upset or lying and you won't take
anyone's crap.

Which taking back sunday song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
|You bleed

[23 Apr 2003|03:22pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I don't want to live on someday when my motto is last week.
I don't want to be responsible for your fractured heart
and its wounded beat.


Yesterday: Well, I woke up at around 1 ate breakfast, then my mom drove me to Amanda's. Erica was already over there, so we just hung out for awhile. We had a P.J Party!!! Oh yeah 8-)

Then I took a shower, and then around 3:30 Matthew came over, and then Josh came over at around 4:30 8-) Then we all just hung around in Amanda's room. Then they went to the park, while we hung around, and then, they met Derek and Ryan up there. Derek brought his guitar.. jesus. Or as he would say geetar. wierdo Then after awhile, we saw Ryan, Matt, Josh and Derek sitting on the corner of Petri and Wildwood Derek playing his geetar. So they came around and we sat outside on the picnick table and we listened to him play the geetar And Derek burned my sucker, and yeah, then he tried to burn my slipper and the picnick table. wierdo Then we went down into the basement, and we just talked and stuff. They hid Dereks geetar and then as Derek was saying he knew everything Ryan asked "Okay then where is your guitar?" It was great. You had to be there. Well, then Matt and Derek left. 10 minutes later out of the blue, Derek is clomping down the stairs. A big black blob! Lmao, it was great. Then the boys finally left and we had PIZZA! Yum =) Then we just hung around and danced! That was exciting. Lol. Then we went to bed after awhile, and I couldn't sleep at all. I was up until 5 in the morning. I was in and out sleepingness I guess you could say. But yeah. I had a horrible time trying to fall asleep my eyes were bothering me and my nose was runny =( allergies suck..

Then morning finally came, and Erica offered to make us breakfast. Well everything was peachy with a side of keen and me and Amanda are eating, you know, and Erica is cooking her last batch of her Saturday Morning Breakfast and all the sudden I am sitting at the table. I smell something, and I say "Hm, what smells?" Then all of the sudden, the microwave is open, Erica is rolling on the ground moaning in pain, Amanda gets up, and the microwave is open, with a huge metal pan in it Okay, there is something wrong, when you don't know not to put metal in the microwave. Jesus Christ. So, yeah, it smells like burning bodies over here, and Erica is all "Ow my hand." and I'm like "You idiot, you don't put metal in the Microwave and Amanda was jollily LAUGHING as she tries to put out the small yet protentious fire. Jesus Christ...

*laughs to self*

You guys are too cute...


2 You learn| |You bleed

[23 Apr 2003|12:23am]
Bar3ly Br3athlng: haha, ur are just one cool cat grace
less than gloryx: hell yeah
less than gloryx: damn striaght biiiiiitch
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LMAO!
less than gloryx: 8-)
Bar3ly Br3athlng: AHH! LOL
Bar3ly Br3athlng: i'm listening to u singing right now8-)
Bar3ly Br3athlng: haha took ur smily
less than gloryx: TAKE IT OFF
less than gloryx: SERIOUSLY
less than gloryx: duuuuude
less than gloryx: what song jesus christ
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL
Bar3ly Br3athlng: sk8er boi
less than gloryx: OMFG
less than gloryx: THAT HURTS ANG
less than gloryx: RIGHT IN THE HEART
less than gloryx: turn if off!
less than gloryx: i sound like a fucking CHODE
less than gloryx: lol
Bar3ly Br3athlng: CHODE..LMAO
less than gloryx: choooooodeeeee
less than gloryx: lol
less than gloryx: chodie
less than gloryx: lollolololol
less than gloryx: sounds like a yugo name
Bar3ly Br3athlng: haha
Bar3ly Br3athlng: so many ways to use that word
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL
less than gloryx: lol
less than gloryx: mmmmm pickles make me horny
less than gloryx: lmao idk why i said that.
Bar3ly Br3athlng: yeah, u walk into 31 flavors and see the lady with the name tag...chooooodddeee
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL
less than gloryx: maybe it was just the atmoshphere
less than gloryx: lmao choooooddeeee
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL
less than gloryx: you know GREEN HOUSE
Bar3ly Br3athlng: hahahahaha
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL
less than gloryx: lol green makes me horny also
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LMAO
Bar3ly Br3athlng: your one horny lil lady!
less than gloryx: gosh so many afrodiziacts so little time.
less than gloryx: hell yeah 8-)<-- that face doesn't come easy.
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LMAO
Bar3ly Br3athlng: ooh god grace, ur too much!
less than gloryx: well dont buy me then nobody ever said i was for sale!!!
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL
less than gloryx: im thirsty
Bar3ly Br3athlng: wheres that come from?
less than gloryx: lol mountain dew
less than gloryx: idk im just thirsty
less than gloryx: my throat hurst and stuff.
less than gloryx: lol
Bar3ly Br3athlng: lol
less than gloryx: i have a half pound solid chocolate bunny, and its chocolatey little eyes are staring at me.
less than gloryx: it wants me to eat it
less than gloryx: you know it hurts that is wants to commit suicide like that.
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LMAO
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL
Bar3ly Br3athlng: haha
less than gloryx: if i was a bunny i wouldn't want to be eaten! i dont know if you would or not.
Bar3ly Br3athlng: omg...i havn't had this much online in so long!!
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL
less than gloryx: i sure as hell wouldn't.
less than gloryx: lol that was funny the greenhouse coney island
Bar3ly Br3athlng: i'd be hiding behind the peeps man!
less than gloryx: LMFAO
Bar3ly Br3athlng: LMAO
Bar3ly Br3athlng: 8-)<we're too great less than gloryx: i was like why the hell they call it that greenhouse coney island. Bar3ly Br3athlng: talking about easter candy Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL less than gloryx: lol yes we are 8-) less than gloryx: hell you'ev got plently of it. less than gloryx: lol Bar3ly Br3athlng: lol...hey a biggy needs supplies! less than gloryx: lmfao less than gloryx: your not bigg lol less than gloryx: im 30988 bigger and i dont have that much candy Bar3ly Br3athlng: i'm just big boned...LOL..ha less than gloryx: i guess my parents are trying to say i need to lose weight. less than gloryx: it hurts, lol. Bar3ly Br3athlng: LOL me and ang are tooo cool 8-)
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[22 Apr 2003|11:31pm]

What's YOUR sexual fetish?
brought to you by Quizilla

^^^ Lmao!
|You bleed

[22 Apr 2003|11:04pm]
[ mood | content ]

We're gonna make it on our own, we dont need anyone, Lord knows we dont need you.

My LadiEs//x: I love you all! We got so much accomplished today. God.. I couldn't even describe how I felt hugging all of you today. You guys mean everything to me. A life without all of you would be so lonley, and so incomplete. I just love all of you, and I'm always here for you.

Erica: You're my best friend. You always will be until the day I die. I love you and there is nothing I wouldn't do for you. And I can be honest when I say best friends for life.

Shannon: Shannon, I realized so much today. We do have things in common. I mean.. me and you dancing today to Britney Spears, we were too cool! You mean everything to me. I absolutley love you.. without you I would not be the person I am today. I can truely say that with a smile on my face.

Amanda: I have never had anyone have such a big impact on my life so quickly. You're so much fun, and without you, I don't think I'd be half the person I am right now. You enhance my personality, and Gosh.. I just love you =)

Justine: We got to know so much about eachother today. I would absolutley love to get to know you. I think it would be one of the most postive things to happen in my life. You're so great, and such a beautiful girl. You're a lot of fun and I really hope we get to know eachother more, I would absolutley love that. =)

Ang (aka Varuuca lmao): Sunshine, you're the best time I ever had! You are full of energy/perkiness that always makes my day. You're an absolute doll. I think we learned a lot about eachother today. And I am always here for you, because I know how much of a hard time you're going through. I am here sweetheart =) Lyl.

Megan: I love you girl! Gosh, you are my Kareoke Queen! We dominate over all those other Kareoke Wannabes! Gosh, without you my life would be empty and without those beautiful midnight phone calls! Words simply cannot explain what you mean to me. Megan, I seriously love you to itty bitty pieces =) And remember, Britney rules =)

Danielle: Sweetheart, I am so glad we started getting closer. You're a really fun person! I love you so much, and I hope that I see more of your wonderful face! =)

Michelle: CAN IT GO ANY HIGHER!? lmao! Where would I be without my Pink G??! Hmm?! I love you so much! You're so much fun and a blast to be around!

Ryan: Estrogen. It's like death for you we all know! I don't know how you can possibly put up with it! You're the magical testoterone that brightens up all of our days! =)

Matthew: You mean the whole wide world to me. Thank you for always being there to listen to me. I love you so much and there is nothing I wouldn't do for you. Without you my life would be absolutley incomplete. There is just no denying that. =)

--LadiEs and Gentlemen, I am so glad we got everything worked out. I just realized how much I love you all. Without you guys, my life would be so vancant and meaningless. I love all of you.

8 You learn| |You bleed

[22 Apr 2003|11:01pm]
[ mood | loved ]

A beautiful girl can make you feel dizzy, like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning. She can make you feel high. Full of the single greatest commaditie known to man. Promise. The promise of a greater hope, the promise of a new tomorrow. This particular aura can be found in the gate of a beautiful girl. In her simle and her soul, and the way she makes every little rotten thing in life seem okay.

|You bleed

[22 Apr 2003|01:51am]
[ mood | creative ]

Perfection is redefined every time I look in your eyes
Your presence enhances my heartbeat
And I hold on to you wishing you would never have to leave

Maybe one day when the sky turns gray
And the buildings and neighborhoods turn into neutral tones
Once like the movies we've seen before
We can face the world

Even if the earth explodes underneath my very feet
I will be there holding your hand
And even if the world melts; exauhsted from all of man's anger
I will be there holding your hand

Maybe one day when the sight is obselete
And the blackness grows tired until it's too black to be seen
Once like the color we once knew
We can run away

Even if the wrath of the sea falls upon me
I will be thinking of you
And even if the sky falls upon me
I will be thinking of you

I swear it's you
I swear it's you
Putting these crazy thoughts into my head

But I've never seen imperfection until I've imagined my life without you.


Man! I'm on a roll!!!

What do you think?

6 You learn| |You bleed

[22 Apr 2003|01:12am]
[ mood | creative ]

Indulge my senses into the sea
The slick and smooth sensation entraping me
It is on every single inch of my body
It captivates me sensually

Plug my nose and count to ten
I feel the sand between my fingers
As it falls back and gravity claims it as its own
Touch the skull next to me from years ago; I must not be on my own

Open my eyes; my sight prisoner of water
It's dark and it's empty
I find myself in a corner
Nobody will witness this but me

Close my eyes; fall into oblivion
Let the water enter every pore
The the water replenish my senses one more time
Then let it drown me
Let it allow me to hit the heavens core

I just saw colors
Did my iris explode?
I just saw colors
Did my brain explode
I just saw colors

Floating to the surface lifeless I suddenly realize
That Life is shamefully appealing once you watch it die

BY ME! =)

What do you think?

|You bleed

[21 Apr 2003|06:41pm]

"Parker Lewis Can't Lose (But I'm Going To Give It My Best Shot)"

You laughed at my affections while I passed by your direction
I should have known from your walk it was the end of you
Its not that I don't respect your opinion
Your quick with lips just rip me apart
Sometimes like this i've got a big mouth and maybe you can handle shutting it up
A simple contradiction could shake my whole foundation
I'm taking back every step towards you
Still failing at everything I do
In the meantime just talking to my shoes
Converse with my Converse
At least they hear a word I say
And scrutinize it just as far as they can tell what I'm getting at
You've twisted my tongue around my neck for the last time
But Parker Lewis can't lose
I'll spend my life trying to figure this all out but this is the last song about you
The last song I waste on you
|You bleed

[21 Apr 2003|04:47pm]
[ mood | content ]

Family-They get on my nerves of course, but I do love them. Everything is fine between all of us =)

Friends-Well, I have a couple friends I really thankful for, but the rest of them give me headaches. I mean.. they only talk to me when there is nobody else around. They call me, ask me to hang out with them and everything. But when someone else is around, I'm put back into oblivion. It's retarted. And I'm goddamn sick of it. Then there is that little wall between all of us. I don't know. The wall will always be there. I don't think there is any way to resolve that.

Love-It's great =) I have the best boyfriend in the world, and I am very blessed to have him. He always makes me happy, and he always makes me smile. I know that he would never do anything to hurt me. I can talk to him about anything and he understands me like no one can. The only thing that sucks is that he goes to a different school than I do, and we only see eachother about once a week =/ But despite all that it's the relationship that I have always wanted. I love you Matthew Knaack! =)

Grades-Well, school is really tough right now. With the extremley rapid pace we are going at in biology, and not undersanding math it gets stressful sometimes. We get way too much homework in biology and a lot of tests in one month. Overrall in one month we have had 4 or 5 tests and about 10 to 15 quizzes. It's ridiculous. But on the up side, I have been on the honor roll all year, and right now my GPA is 3.2 =)

Overall-I am a very happy person. I have a couple great friends, and I have a wonderful boyfriend. Family is going pretty good. But sometimes I do get upset and depressed without knowing why. I will just have to accept it as a part of growing up.

|You bleed

[19 Apr 2003|01:52pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Which lj user are you?
quiz made by bijouriel

You are not a diarist, you are a columist. Your journal is a collection of essays that make people think. You are not afraid to share your views with the world!

|You bleed

[18 Apr 2003|11:23pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

But whatever I have gotten myself into, maybe has been slicing inches from my waist. It's my fist vs. the bottle, and thank God you weren't there. And that's how bad this could hurt, or against I won't feel a thing. And thank God you weren't there..It's a shame I don't think that they'd notice..

--This is what living like this does...


I've been feeling really insignificant latley. I have been feeling like plain dirt. I don't know if anyone has been aware of this or not. Which I'm doubt they are.

I am sick of just about everything at this point. I honestley could not tell you what. I just wish that I could bring everything to the surface, but I don't see it happening anytime soon.

I feel left out. I mean, maybe I bother people..? Which I don't think I do. But if I do, it would be nice to know.

I feel empty and hollow inside. About what I have no idea. I'm just sick of talking and then nobody listening. I'm sick of these one-sided conversations. I'm sick of trying to consult people that act like they don't give a shit. I'm growing tired of wishing I had someone to talk to, because it gets old.

There are times when I feel useless. And there are times when I feel so infuriated and so completely outraged.

Everyone is changing, and I think that I'm searching for the real them, but I'm not finding them--because well.. they forgot about their old self as much as I miss their old self.

I don't know...maybe you're right, because I always feel wrong...

5 You learn| |You bleed

[16 Apr 2003|06:11pm]
[ mood | depressed ]


+ 001. name//:Grace
+ 002. nicknames//:Gracie
+ 003. sex//:Female
+ 004. birthday//:April 1st
+ 005. age//:15
+ 006. star sign//:Aries
+ 007. place of birth//:Mt. Clemens General
+ 008. current residence//: Roseville
+ 009. hair color//:light brown with blonde highlights, and pink and purple streaks.
+ 010. eye color//:Green
+ 011. height//:5'0"
+ 012. writing hand//:Right

+ 013. do you bite your nails//:Yes, ever since I was real little
+ 014. can you roll your tongue//:Yes
+ 016. can you raise one eyebrow at a time//:Yep
+ 017. can you blow smoke rings//:Never tried, because I don't smoke =)
+ 018. can you blow spit bubbles//:Yep all the time, especially when I'm bored(sick I know..)
+ 019. can you cross your eyes//:Yes
+ 020. colored hair//:Yes
+ 021. tattoos and where//:None
+ 022. piercings and where//: 1 hole in each ear, and one up on top.</b>
+ 023. do you make your bed daily//:Nope
+ 024. what goes on first bra or underwear//:Hmm.. underwear
+ 025. which shoe goes on first//:Whichever foot is closest. I take my shoes off too much to know.
+ 036. speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone//:I'm sure I have.
+ 037. how much money is usually in your wallet//: None, and I don't have a wallet.. basically, because as you see, I have no use for one.
+ 038. what jewelry do you wear 24/7//:My beaded braclets, and hmm.. that's it.
+039. whats sexiest on a guy//:Their smile and their lips
+040. whats sexiest on a gurl//:I don't know, lol.
+041. would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great//:Hmm.. where this depends on where I was going. If I was just going to a friends house or something, then I would rather look okay, but if I'm going to like... a party or something I would rather be late.
+ 042. do you twirl your spagetti or cut it//: I don't know. Whichever way it can fit into my mouth.
+ 043. how many cereals are in your cabinet//:No good ones.
+ 044. what utensils do you use eating pizza//: Ah.. my hands and a napkin, lol
+ 045. do you cook//:I'm especially bad at it, so I usually only cook for myself.

+ 046. how often do you brush your teeth//:Before I go to out, when I wake up, and before I go to bed
+ 047. how often do you shower/bathe//:Every morning
+ 048. how long do these showers last//:45 minutes to an hour.
+ 049. hair drying method//:Let's see, dry in towel, brush, blowdry, brush again and then I'm done!
+ 050. do you paint your nails//:Sometimes..
+ 051. do you swear//:Yes
+ 052. do you mumble to yourself//:Yes
+ 053. do you spit in public//:I have a couple times.
+ 054. do you pee in the shower//:Lmao, Nope.
+ 055. the cd player//:Do I pee in the CD player? What the hell kind of question is that? Of course not..
+ 056. person you talk most on the phone with//:Megan. She's the only one who loves me enough to call me! lol
+ 057. what color is your bedroom//:Yellow...
+ 058. do you use an alarm clock//:Nope
+ 059. name one thing or person you're obsessed with//:Does underwear shopping count?
+ 060. have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex//:No.
+ 061. ever sunbathed in the nude//:Can't say I have.
+ 062. window seat or aisle//:Aisle
+ 063. whats your sleeping position//:I'm a really restless sleeper. I knock the covers off the bed, and everything. I steel covers too, lol.
+ 064. what kind of bed do you like//:Water bed, or a really, really big soft bed.
+ 065. in hot weather do you use a blanket//:Yes, I have to. It keeps me feeling secure.
+ 066. do you snore//:No, I don't believe so.
+ 067. do you sleepwalk//:No
+ 068 do you talk in your sleep//:Seldomly, but I guess I sing in my sleep, lol.
+ 069. do you sleep with a stuffed animal//:Yep, Joey =) Can't sleep without him.
+ 070. how about the light on//:Well, my iguana has this dark red light that is his nightlight.. so sort of.
+ 071. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on//:Usually, I listen to a CD or a comforting song over and over

+ 072. had sex//:I am a virgin!
+ 073. were kissed or kissed someone//:Yesterday =)
+ 074. watched bambi//:Gosh, I must have been.. maybe 10!
+ 075. cried//:2 hours ago =(
+ 076. talked on the phone//:Last night.
+ 077. read a book//:Today at school.
+ 078. punched someone//:Hm.. nobody latley..
+ 079. where do you see yourself ten years from now//: Just getting out of college, engaged to a smart guy, getting married and having some kids =)
+ 080. who are you gonna be married to and where//:I couldn't tell you who, but I hope New York, or some little island that has a very low amount of people
+ 081. how many kids do you want to have//:6
+ 082. your profession//:Mother, High School English Teacher, Flight Attendant, Author. or most of all a Singer/Writer.
+ 083. future school//:NYU(I wish..)

+ 084. who is your best friend//:Erica
+ 085. what friend do you hang out with the most//:Erica and Amanda
+ 086. what friend makes you smile the most//:Amanda
+ 087. friend that you fight with the most//:Amanda.. hmm Ryan
+ 088. one you talk to the most online//:Hmm.. All of them
+ 089. friend that you miss the most//:Erin of course

+ 090. is music important to you//:Very Important.
+ 091. do you sing?//:Yes =) It's my most favorite thing
+ 092. what instruments do you play?//:Oboe and Flute
+ 094. what do you think of Eminem//:Wannabe hardass
+ 095. in your opinion, what band is the best of all time?//:Hmm...of all time is a really long time..

+ 096. pop music//: It's crap now, but Britney still rocks
+ 097. rock music//:Yep
+ 098. punk music//:Some of it
+ 099. rap music//:No
+ 100. hip-Hop/RB//:No
+ 101. country//:Noooooo
+ 102. jazz//:Yep
+ 103. classical//:Yep
+ 104. new age//:I don't know what that is
+ 105. what is one band/singer you absolutely love that no one else does or seems to have heard about//:The Sly caps or Ash or Trapt
+ 106. your word//:Idk

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